I swear I’m on the verge of a quarter life crisis and have been for a couple of years now.
Life can be a cruel bitch sometimes, throwing things at you until one day you reach breaking point and snap. While I believe life is what you make it and you can choose your own destiny sometimes it is a lot easier to go on life’s ride, let it knock you around a little and then pick yourself back up, learn from it and move on.
Whilst I’m still not over that edge yet I do feel dangerously close, I think exercising is my outlet at the moment as it is something I can have control over.
I saw my mum this morning and told her I was over it and I’ve had enough, what I was talking about I’m not 100% sure, I think it was mostly study. Although in the back of my mind I know it’s the way life has been going in general. I know where I want it to go but having this study in the way is stopping me from jumping that hurdle.
I like change, I get bored living in the same house after about a year generally. That is why we don’t spend many weekends at home, I’d rather be out exploring, I can’t sit still.
I think I am getting a bit resentful of the fact that I have gone straight from school into full time work and almost full time study on top of that and I haven’t been able to get out and do as many things as I would have liked.
I need change, what that means is another story. I’m not entirely sure yet, I think I need a change of scenery but on the other hand need to suck it up and stick it out until the end of October to get through my workshops and exam otherwise all this study over the past 7.5years would have been pretty wasted.
Le Sigh! I think I needed to get that off my chest even if I’m none the wiser as to what I need to do. I’m hoping a week in Rarotonga at the start of August will help me sort my head out.
How do you get your head clear and make sure life is heading in the direction you want?